Dreading Tomorrow

You'd think that seeing my mom losing weight with Weight Watchers and then working for them would be this awesome motivation to get going myself. I mean, I have my own "personal leader", I'm very familiar with the food plans, and I've seen Weight Watchers' system work magic.  You might also think that my mom would force me to follow the weight loss program and I'd do it just to make her happy. WRONG!

I know I'm capable of losing the weight and eating healthy.  I actually don't mind my fruits, veggies, and other healthy food at all.  I've even lost a lot of weight before.  Why then, do I have my DOCTOR telling me I need to lose weight?  Why don't I just stick to a plan and get myself to a place where I'd be happy with my health?  I've had every opportunity and resource available to me and still I have my doctor getting after me.  Here's the plain and simple truth of it all:  I'm not willing to put forth the effort.  I also love food and hate exercise.  I've given my mom every excuse you could possibly think of and then some. Of course she didn't buy into any of them. Surprised? You shouldn't be.

I've heard about all the times my mom has done her boot camp for work.  I've heard about all the people who write her letters wanting in and say they're willing to do anything and everything it takes to do this.  Sometimes she's done it where only a few people can get in.  Then I've also heard of the many people who've dropped out.  How screwed up is that? I mean seriously, you get into boot camp which means someone else didn't.  Then you choose to not follow through and thereby deprive someone else of an amazing opportunity.  Yes, boot camp is hard and intimidating.  But YOU are the one CHOOSING to do it.  My mom doesn't twist anyone's arm to do it.

My mom approached me and asked me if I'd like to get involved with boot camp this time.  Normally I would've said: "You're seriously asking me that?" and then laughed at the absurdity of it all.  I mean, come on this is me we're talking about.  However, this time I said I'd think about it.  When I was thinking, I had the following thought.  What if I did it just to show her members that even someone as weight loss resistant as me can do it?  Then they'd have absolutely no excuses.

So, if for no other reason, I'm choosing to do boot camp this time.  I want to be able to look my mom's classes in the eye and say I did it. Now it's time for them to step it up.  The opportunity was GIVEN to me.   They CHOSE to do it.  I'm totally going to be able to do this.  :)  I like to think I'm very capable and INDESTRUCTIBLE person.  Food isn't my enemy; my attitude is my enemy.  I owe this to myself.  If I'm telling her classes to step it up, I need to as well.  I'm here to show myself who's boss.  I don't care how scared I am to lose weight and be healthy.  I don't care that this will be the hardest thing I've done in a very long time. It's about time I do something productive with my life.

I love my boys in Disturbed and their song 'Indestructible' (off their album with the same name) is going to keep me motivated :)

Epic Oblivion Party

Danika and I had THE most epic DAP party ever on Friday! Like seriously!  After work we went on an adventure to the magical land of Del Taco and got much, much tacos. All delicious of course!  We came home, watched a couple episodes of Golden Girls. (love that show!) then we got to work playing Oblivion.

We had two TVs set up in my basement so we could both play our games at the same time. It was our most brilliant plan yet. We started playing around maybe 8:45.  Before we knew it, it was midnight. We were playing so much our PS3s kept freezing up. :D  We decided to take a little break and watch a couple more episodes of Golden Girls.  All in all, we didn't go to bed until maybe 5:00 in the A.M.! It was so worth it though.  We fell asleep and didn't get up until noon! I haven't slept in that late in I don't know how long.

After we woke up, we played some more Oblivion. Surprised? You shouldn't be :)  After a couple hours we headed upstairs to make some pizza rolls. Those... are so yummy! We watched Golden Girls while we ate.
Then we got back down to our Oblivion business. Danika and I had started the Mages Guild together.  If it wasn't for her... the dumb deranged zombies would've been my downfall. Grr...

For dinner we had PB&J sandwiches and faux cup o noodles.  We played more Oblivion  and watched more Golden Girls until she went home about 8:00.  The most frustrating and tedious part of the night? Not being able to find a stupid spell for snowballs. Or was it Ice? Who knows?! Point being we finally found one in the Imperial Market District.

Danika is the bestest person to play Oblivion with. She's so good at it! She helped me pick locks, kill zombies, and give me hints on how to do things.  We also discovered that you cannot wait while you're in mid-air.  "Follow the red arrow" was the advice I was most given while playing. It's more helpful than I might think. :)  I was sooo happy when I could finally go to a church and pray at the altar. I was glad to get my personality back. :)  In short, Oblivion is AMAZING!